ARE
YOU REALLY OVER THERE?
I am reading The Self Aware
Universe by Amit Goswami and have been deeply drawn to the
point that there is only one consciousness in a manner that greatly
shifted my awareness. There is not your consciousness over there
and mine over here. We think from the same mind. We dwell in the
same mind source.
Our vocabulary should not contain
"I, me, you and them." What would happen if we said,
"We think, we feel, we know?" One consciousness, one
mind, one thought. My consciousness is not separate from yours.
Yours is the same consciousness as mine. We are one big thought,
one mind.
I so want to cling on to my
individuality, my uniqueness, my personal talents and achievements.
How do I make this shift? How do I merge with and accept one mind,
one consciousness as my reality?
I rather like the analogy of the Cosmic Soup-that I am seasoning
that affects the Cosmic soup which contains all there is, but
that still makes me feel separate as it puts the emphasis back
on me and my particular flavor.
The analogy of the ocean and
my being a drop in that ocean works a bit better, first exists
the ocean, then me as a drop.
But that still keeps me separate.
How can I become truly aware of my role in one consciousness?
I can't get there from my body
suit although I want to.
I believe that my thoughts of
peace affect the whole group consciousnesses, but even the word
"group" suggests separate and many. And I believe I
am affected by the group consciousness just as someone adding
salt would affect the taste of the Cosmic Soup.
I can only feel my consciousness
when I lose myself, when I move into an inner silence so deep
that my body disappears, my sense of self disappears. "I"
no longer exist, I am absorbed and melded into something so all
pervading, all encompassing that I lose all sense of "self."
Can I feel my consciousness
as part of yours? I can feel your energy. I can feel your love,
I can feel your vibration but I'm not sure I can yet feel that
you and I have and are the same consciousness.
Can I feel my consciousness
being the same as my cats? Can I feel my consciousness as the
same as the trees along my walk and the insects in my garden and
the rocks along my path?
There are moments as I walk
my life journey that I can experience that feeling. As I gaze
in wonder at a magnificent mountain, or watch a spectacular sun
rise and sun set. I can catch glimpses of it in meditation and
in moments when I stop to listen and feel. I cannot yet walk my
life in constant awareness of my total interconnection with all.
And I am willing to learn to do so.
My consciousness is not separate
from yours. Your consciousness is not separate from mine. We are
of One Mind.
I shall walk though my day with
a deeper awareness and try to capture our sameness.
I disappear.
I disappear
Into stillness
I disappear
Into stillness
And find home.
© Cara Lumen 2005
